Role Reversal

i watched you as you stalked me

pretending to be unaware

as you gazed at me from afar

unaware that that i was watching your every move

your eyes wide 

studying me, enveloping me

i could tell you desired to be by my side

you wanted to be the friend laughing with me

the girl hugging me

the lover kissing me

with earnest you watched me

devoured my every move

your mind engulfing my existence

yet your fear kept you from approaching me

still i watched you stalk me

growing fond of your lingering presence

smiling when i caught you staring

chucklin when i saw u blush

knowing you had no idea

secretly i wanted you too

not knowing when i myself became the pursuer

and you the prey

i noticed i began to watch you

saddened when you werent around

happy when you walked past

excited when noticed me watching you

jealous when you talked to another

how i desired to close this distance

this barrier between you and i

yet i realized

you began to disappear

removing yourself from my world

as i became curious about yours

as you began to give up on me

my desire for you grew astonishingly

more and more you crossed my mind

i knew i wanted you 

needed you, had to have you 

so today as i stand before you

for the first time

since i noticed you watching me

i ask you

will you be mine...

First Kiss

so close

yet so far away

i reached my hand to touch you

but touched nothing but air

i tried to wrap my arms around you

yet staggered through you

like you werent even there

yet you were so close

why couldnt i touch you

hold you close to me

like i wanted to

yet before i asked 

i already knew the answer

sadly you belonged to another 

yet my desire for you was great

like i needed you beside me

your mouth warned me that it was treacherous

my mind told me it'd be torture

my heart still crept closer to you

i walked towards you

reaching my hand toward your face

stopping at your cheek

though i could not touch you

i felt your warmth

you desired me like i desired you

i stepped in front of you

your eyes closing

i knew what you wanted as you leaned toward me

i kissed you

though our lips never touched

the electricity 

the sensation

the feeling

better than any before

i looked at you

though you were already fading

as the sun rose over the horizon

disappearing

as if you never truly existed

yet i could still taste you 

feel your lips 

that i never felt

a memory that would last forever

our first kiss...

Poetry

i scribble nonsense

wrapped within insolence

tied in a bow of hindrance

lacking severe common sense

i let the words flow to me

constant negativity

uncharted calamity

morbid insanity

and yet

you still deem it poetry

i grasp my pain and write it

you read the page excited

your interest ignited 

telling me this is deep and subscribe it

but tell me do you really understand

these words just aren't written in the sand

just to be erased as the tide come to land

they're as real as the blood in your hand

i take my fears and mold it

onto this canvas to hold it

trying to control it

but i turned my back, you sold it

i scribble words of misery

wrapped within mystery

tied in a bow of history

confounding the senses like wizardry

these words flow through me

this melancholy beauty

destroying everything close to me

obliterating everything you think you see

and yet

you still call this poetry